I will survive, is my latest update following my previous journal regarding my run in with the bloody Devil of Tarot.
Performing my daily tarot card readings is essential for my daily dose of self-therapy. For me, I find that it is an excellent tool for reflection and a way of communicating with my higher self. Some of us refer to this work as, ‘shadow work‘.
Without a doubt, I am so relieved to see these cards pictured above that offer me so much hope and renewal. Cycles are in progress and I know that I will survive.
Therefore, a quick recap is in order just in case you have no idea of what I am waffling on about.
The Devil and my ego
For the past week, the Devil has been popping up in my readings and I was forced to face my negative feelings that ultimately, were holding me back. I always strive to ‘go with the flow‘ however, The Devil was trying to take control over my anxious mind.
I will survive
Well, guess who wins?
Me!
The cycles of life are clearly on display with the ‘Ten of Pentacles‘ being a strong influence in my past.
It took me a lot of courage to build my business and basically, this is currently on my mind.
November, 2024 has been incredibly slow and most definitely challenging. Also, I began questioning the decision I made to quit my career and become self-employed. As a result, I began challenging my thoughts with truth, reason and logic. Without a shadow of a doubt in my mind, I have never been happier in life.
I will always relate The Devil to my ego mind and my fall into pain and despair. Anxiety was sucking the very life and soul out of me back in 2017. Yes, I will survive and simply affirming this is allowing me to feel strong and victorious in my heart.
Me and my future
Considering I began my self-employment in 2020, I have done well to survive the struggles. In addition, I am fully aware of not yet having five years under my belt. Also, ‘the cost of living crisis‘, ‘Brexit‘, ‘energy crisis‘, and so much more, are making things difficult to create a solid foundation. What is normal?
Only in March this year, I lost 90% of my income practically overnight, when our shop was forced to close. Unbelievably, this was the best thing to happen for me and my career so far. I know this will sound so corny, but it was definitely on the cards to happen.
It is no wonder that I can say with speed and conviction that, I will survive!
Prosperous new beginnings
My present situation is the Ace of Coins bringing me prosperous new beginnings. When one cycle ends, a new one begins.
These cards are such a good example of how the challenges and obstacles we face are temporary. With a solid foundation of self-care, I am able to face them and survive. Furthermore, the art of reflection and shadow work enables me to learn more about myself and why at times, I feel vulnerable and worried.
Just for today, I will not worry!
I chant this Reiki precept daily. Just for today, be present, not inside your head. If I am worrying, I am not facing or dealing with something.
Summarising I will survive
The Chariot in the position of my future influences is demonstrating that conviction I feel within my heart. I feel the change so deep inside and now my time has come to charge forward. Take the bull by its horns and fight for survival! Hmm, I think that last phrase was a bit too dramatic.
Seriously though, worrying and catastrophising will take me backwards hence, tying myself up in chains. Freedom is a better alternative and I wonder what is coming?
